ameriplan!

I have found a new lease on life! Ceck this out!

stage 4

Near as I can figure Im in stage 4, I hope Ill stay in this stage for a while. Things are going ok for now. I am trying to run my own business for now, I have a partner who helps alot!!!!!!

so what if I have cancer

well had my mamogram last week. They found something! Is it so bad for me to hope that it is cancer? If it is Ill go faster get my dignity back (cancer is a more noble dz dont you know) and my family wont have to see me turn into someone else!

update

Well it turns out bankrupsy wouldnt help because scool loans are not covered. So back to the drawing board.

At least I have found out why I was so tired all the time. The dr order a pulse ox for me to wear overnite to check my o2 levels. Turns out I was at 78% most of the night. Needless to say I am now on o2 at night.

Also I have started the atkins diet. Have lost about 12 lbs. so far! I plan to start execiseing this week too. My plan is to get in good enough shape to be able to go horseback riding more often.

When all else fails

Well in the morning we are going to go see a lawyer about bankrupsy. I dont want to cheat anyone out of anything but I cant afford to pay on the school loans. I will let you know how this turnsout. Please pray for us that this is the right thing to do.

Royal Gorge

Today we, my family and me , went to the royal gorge. I got to go horse back riding again! It was great. We took lots of pictures. Had a great day. Just the way I wanted to start this summer.

Bucket List

A freind of mine is doing his bucket list. I never thought about it before. I guess theyre are things I have always wanted to do but all I want to do now is be with my family. I think we will spend this summer doing things we've been putting off. I want to take lots of pictures and go lots of different places ( locally ) and enjoy this summer with my husband and boys.

Let the world know

I think anyone who has eoad should contact their local news agency and let them know how hard it is to be so young and not get any support!!!!!!!!!!

A concerned caretaker's story.

A new freind of mine would like to share her story with you! This is her story in her own words: You asked me to send you my story. I am a little scattered, but I will try. It was my fathers dream to have a place where his whole family could live. I loved the idea. I love the property. It is a place I could raise animals and have a vegetable garden and fruit trees. We bought the property in 1975. In 1985 my father passed away with pancreatic cancer. In 1995 my mother, brother and his five children, and myself all lived on property my mother and I owned. I had done five years of foster care. Thought it was the perfect place for children. My brother and his children went to Florida for a year. While they were gone I found out my nephew had molested three of my foster children. Two of the children had gone back to their families and I adopted one that was still with me. I told my mother and brother what had happened. My brother said I was lying and my mother said, "It was only sex". I had to leave to protect him. I got a job in San Jose and a year later transferred to Marysville. My mother used to come and see me in Marysville. I was concerned about her because she was still driving. She was loosing weight and repeating herself. My sister and I made plans to take her to a doctor. My sister decided to call my brother and tell him we were going to take her to a doctor and would be a little late. He was angry. He called my mother and they had a short conversation. She was very upset and my brother came and got her. Before she left I told her we were trying to take her to the doctor because she had dementia. She said "I do not!". Shortly after that my brother had my mother sign a Trust leaving her half of the property to him. By the way, my mother had supported my brother and his family all their lives. Not quite sure how long after, but about three years later he had her sign a Power of Attorney. I had two houses on the property which I rented when I left. My tenants were reporting neglect right away. I went up once and saw very large holes in the floor in the kitchen. I was afraid she would fall in. I let him know I would take her at any time. He refused. I began to realize he was keeping her because he needed her income to survive. I called APS and reported the situation.They went out and made him fix the floors and the steps leading into the house. Of coarse, he was furious with me. This went on for about 13 years. It got more and more serious. I called APS often. I called lawyers and they said I couldn't do anything because he had Power of Attorney. I think he realized he was in trouble but couldn't, wouldn't, admit it. It finally came to an end last year. A friend saw my mother passed out over her deck railing. The Sheriff was called. She wrote a very sad three page report. My mother was soaked in urine. The water in the house was turned off and there was no food in the house. They sent her to town in an ambulance. I met her there. I found out my brother was also in the hospital with a heart condition. I am not surprised. He smoked and drank coffee all day. He later admitted to doing drugs. When I went into the emergency room I could barely recognize my mother. Her hair was very long and dirty. Her skin was dark. Later found out it was dirt and dead skin. The doctor said she hadn't had anything in her stomach for a while. She was also dehydrated. Of coarse, everyone was appauled. She stayed in the hospital two weeks. My brother went home after a week. My sister went down and talked to him. He was so angry he just screemed at her. She continued to decline. Later had a peg tube inserted so she could eat. She did recover. My brother gave permission for me to take her home with me. As he still had Power of Attorney. I was afraid he would try and take her home, but didn't happen. The Police told me to call them if he tried. She is such a fighter and doing quite well now, except for the dementia.

still alice

I just finished listening to a cd book called "still Alice" I would highly recomend every one to read this book. So far, at least the first part, she decribes exactly what its like for me!

Its getting so hard!

I can never think of the words I want to say when I need to say them. It builds up over time until I cant contain it any more, and then it comes out all mixed up and Larry has to figure it out. Its not fair! My life has been one disaster after another. Being molested as a child into my teenage yrs, Finally getting married and thinking all my troubles were over. All I wanted was to be a mommy. After having my first child, I had 3 miscarrages, we then adopted a little baby girl only to have her die at 2 yrs old. I did have another son after that, and was just starting to put my life back together. Decided to go back to school when my husband retired. For 2 yrs I tried to study and memorize. The harder I tried the harder it got. I finally quit and tried to go to work. They tried to teach me, but I could not learn. That is why I decided to be checked out by a Dr. After 6 mos of extensive test they decided I have alzheimers. Now the more I try to do the less I can do, we have bills to pay, and insurance wont cover someone to come in and help me. They would rather send me to a nursing home, which, by the way, costs alot more, makes sence right?

Im worried!

I never thought I would ever have to tell so much about myself but I think its important that everyone stops to think about what could happen to them.

Well, here goes. We dont have the money to pay our bills, we need someone to come and watch me, to make sure I dont get into trouble. The only thing I have left that I can do is blog. My computer is too old and it is very hard for me to even do this. I would love to have an updayted computer but I know we cant afford it! I know Im going to leave my family in debt! I do trust in God, but we got ourselves into this mess, how can we expect God to get us out. If we only knew then what we know now. It is so important to get the right insurance. I only hope that someone whoe reads this can learn from my mistakes. Once you are diagnosed it is too late!

News

I am starting a team for the memory wal this fall. Please follw the link to memorywalk to sign up to walk or support a walker. Thanks Laura

hello all

Today was a long day. Im very tired. The dr refuses to give me a stimulant. Wants to run more test. I hate getting new drs All they do is make you do all the tests over again then after 6 monthes tells you that you would be better off with another dr. I made a new blog, and Im starting a team for the memory walk this fall.If anyone wants to join the team or sponcer us please come to; http:memorywalk09.kintera.org/coloradosprings/teamlaura my new blog is http:alheimersat45.webs.com/ let me know which blog is the best.

update

I have had a long talk with my husband and I really think he understands now that what I say may not be what I mean, and unfortunately its up to him to figure it out, because I cant refraise what Im saying.

Today was a good day!

my name is Laura and I have EOAD